And I told you to be patient And I told you to be fine And I told you to be balanced And I told you to be kind And in the morning I'll be with you But it will be a different kind And I'll be holding all the tickets And you'll be owning all the fines
"Okay, here it is. Your choice, it's simple, her or me. And I'm sure she's really great. But I love you. In a really, really big, pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So Pick me. Choose me. Love me."
Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy Season 2, Episode 5
One of my favorite episodes where Allison, Derek's ex-wife came back to Seatlle Grace and Derek struggles with choosing between her and his present girl Meredith.
I can relate with how Meredith felt when Allison came back. It is hard to compete with someone from the past because you are not just competing with the person but also with the relationship and the memories they have established. This line from Derek says it all:
"Derek: [to Meredith] Look I was married for 11 years. Addison is my family. That is 11 Thanksgiving’s, 11 birthdays, 11 Christmas’s, and in one day I am supposed to sign a piece of paper and end my family? A person doesn’t do that, not without a little hesitation. I’m entitled to a little uncertainty here. Just a moment to understand the magnitude of what it means to cut somebody out of my life. I am entitled to at least one moment of painful doubt and a little understanding from you would be nice."
I think Derek is selfish, well he should have thought of that before he got in to a relationship with Meredith. But it happens...We enter into new relationships thinking that we have moved on or at least ready to move on. We think that being in a new relationship will help us forget the pains from our last one. It is not easy to just cut somebody off of your life even if they have hurt you badly in the past. It's not easy to let go of memories both good and bad.
I'm not the kind of girl who, when faced with a man who is deciding between me and someone else, will say "Pick me, choose me, love me." I firmly believe that if a man loves me, and I mean really loves me, there would be no choice for him. I would want him to feel for me in the same way that I feel for him, and when I am in love, there is no other choice but the target of my love. At the end of the day this is what I would say:
"Well, it is your choice, it's simple, her or me. I love you. In a really really big, pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. I can fight for you but I will not beg for you to pick me, choose me and love me. I love myself more, that I would not go that far and we both know that I do not deserve that. Just remember that if you choose her, she may hurt you (again) and when she does, I won't be here." ☺
Well, that's just me...It's gonna hurt like hell if the person you love chooses the other girl but the thing is you shouldn't allow yourself to just be an option or one of the many options. Know that you the deserve someone who doesn't need to choose because there would be no other choice for him but you.
Fighting for love is a lot different from begging for it. I think that the begging and the "will do anything and everything for you just choose me over her" is only for movies or telenovelas. People may call pride, but I prefer to call it self-love and self-respect. ☺
"Balance is never letting anyone love you less than you love yourself"
Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat. Pray, Love
P.S I wrote this over a year ago. I don't really know why but I just didn't have the courage to post it. Haha! Oh well....
Someday you're gonna realize
One day you’ll see this through my eyes
By then i won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared
I know
You don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long,
Won't take long
Cause someday, someone’s' gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday ,someone’s' gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday..
Right now
I know you can tell
I'm down, and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye..
Cause someday, someone’s' gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday ,someone’s' gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday..
"Cristina, I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there, in sickness and in health. I could say till death do us part. But I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. I'm a heart man. Take 'em apart, put 'em back together, hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this, I am sure. You are my partner. My lover. My very best friend. My heart. My heart beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you... me."
MEREDITH: "If you want to break up with me, so that you can see other women, just do it. Don't tell me you met another woman. Just end it, if that's what you want."
DEREK: "I can't."
MEREDITH: "Sure you can, here's how it goes. Meredith, I don't want to see you anymore. Meredith, I don't love you anymore."
DEREK: "Meredith, I do love you. Don't you see? Don't you understand? You're the love of my life. I can't leave you. But you're constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want, you come back when you want. Not everyone, not your friends, but you leave me. So, I'm asking you, if you don't see a future with us. Please... please just end it because I'm in it. Put me out of my misery."
Ian Wyndham: I guess what I'm trying to say is... I want to soldier on. I really do. Okay?
Samantha Andrews: No.
Ian Wyndham: No what?
Samantha Andrews: I don't... want to soldier on.
Samantha Andrews: Ian, if I were to stay in London now, it would be for you. For us. And I would do that in a heartbeat if I knew we were really special.
Ian Wyndham: We are.
Samantha Andrews: Really? You never tell me how you feel or talk about yourself. You don't want to meet my family. You forgot my graduation. We run into my favorite student and you act as if he has something contagious.
Samantha Andrews: Ian,I know you have the best intentions, but I feel like I'm a really high second priority to you. That hurts. And the worst part is I'm starting to get used to it.
Ian Wyndham: I don't understand.
Samantha Andrews: I know. That's what kills me.
Samantha Andrews: If there had just been one day Ian, one day where nothing else matters but us.
Ian Wyndham: I adore you.
Samantha Andrews: I don't want to be adored, I want to be loved.
Don't make it harder than it is
We both knew it'd come to this
Better now than in a year
More night of tears and we both hate each other
The fuse is already lit, so how about a final kiss
Just let it go...
You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted.
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
(Died for you)
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
ako ay tao lang napapagod din .. lagi na lang ganito wala naman akong napapala puro lang salita na mukhang nakalimutan na ata sabi nga ng kaibigan ko "kulang pa ba! hindi pa ba sapat!" nakakasawa na ayaw ko na konti na lang 2 buwan na lang... kung wala pa rin ayaw ko na. yun lang!
Here is the list of the New Astrological dates and signs
Capricorn - Jan 20 to Feb 16 Aquarius - Feb 16 to Mar 11 Pisces - Mar 11 to Apr 18 Aries - Apr 18 to May 13 Taurus - May 13 to Jun 21 Gemini - Jun 21 to Jul 20 Cancer - Jul 20 to Aug 10 Leo - Aug 10 to Sep 16 Virgo - Sep 16 to Oct 30 Libra - Oct 30 to Nov 23 Scorpio - Nov 23 to Nov 29 Ophiuchus - Nov 29 to Dec 17 Sagittarius - Dec 17 to Jan 20
I was born on Nov 5. The new Astrology signs now makes me a Libra but I will always be a Scorpio by heart!
Magnetic, elusive, sexy and determined. That’s you Scorpio! You were born under the eighth sign of the zodiac which is referred to by astrologers as a fixed water (ice) sign. In a lot of ways ice sums up your emotional character. But why is this, when you have fiery and warlike Mars ruling you?
Your star sign is probably one of the most misunderstood signs of the zodiac. It has had a pretty bad rap over the years, but that’s just because what people don’t understand, they tend to fear. That cool aloofness is just the surface of your complex nature, and is by no means bad. Below the surface of your cool exterior is a scorching and passionate fire. You know it and others sense it too.
You’re an emotional being, and you take it to the limits. In fact you need overkill to feel really alive. You also want approval, though you don’t often verbalise that. You give 100 per cent of yourself to those you love, and expect the same, if not more, in return. There are definitely no half measures in your attitude to love.
You are demanding of yourself and others, but when you give your heart to someone you’re very loyal. You are committed to anything you do, including relationships — you absolutely adore the idea of love. It’s a challenge that excites you.
You turn heads whenever you walk into a room — you are the strong, silent type, and you have a magnetic aura. You have something that’s hard to put your finger on but makes it nearly impossible for people to ignore you. You know full well that you can manipulate people, and you love it! This magnetic power is really your greatest strength.
It’s well known astrologically that the eyes of a Scorpio can hypnotise. Whether you know it or not, this is your most powerful physical trait. Often people will often say that you have amazing eyes. So even though you don’t always articulate your feelings, your eyes do plenty of communicating for you — they can express the full range of your emotional states.
Determination is another of your key characteristics. People can see you as insensitive to others’ needs, even obsessive, because you push forward so single-mindedly. There are no half-measures in your life — in friendship, love, family life or work. You want to be the best, and you won’t let anything stand in the way.
But on the plus side, you like to share your successes with the people you take under your wing, whether they’re family or friends.
You’re not afraid of obstacles or challenges, whether they are something unavoidable or foes or competitors. In fact, you thrive on them — you love trying to prove that no one can stop you.
If someone tries to corner you or put you in a difficult situation, they’d better be prepared to give it their best shot, because you won’t give in until you win, and your enemy is totally crushed in body, mind and spirit.
If that ruthless streak in your character can’t be satisfied straight away, you’ll wait, patiently, until the proper time to seek revenge. Time is of no consequence to you when it comes to wreaking vengeance.
Whether you’re fulfilling your sensual appetites or your more noble aspirations, pleasure will always be a focus for you. You want it all. You are not afraid of the dark side, even though you seek the light. This is why Scorpio has three totems — the scorpion, the lizard and the phoenix.
The scorpion is the most vengeful and dangerous part of your nature. If you’re operating on that level, you’ll be constantly seeking to hurt others with your power. This is, of course, something to avoid.
The lizard represents the class of scorpions who hide from life and never quite achieve the full measure of their power. They sometimes seek self-destructive outlets such as drugs or even criminal activities to satisfy their obsessive nature.
If you aspire to the best that Scorpio has to offer, you’ll be the phoenix, which rises out of the ashes. This transformative totem indicates that you have to burn your lower nature to allow the most splendid parts of your nature to live and grow. Fortunately, most Scorpios lean towards the phoenix.
In appearance you will be well proportioned, strong in body, muscular, and with a broad face and a commanding look. Your eyes, as already mentioned, are your strong point.
You are a tireless worker and generally achieve great success after the middle part of life.
Hindi Name: Vrishchik Date of Birth: 24th October to 22nd November Ruling Planet: Mangal (MARS) Nakshatras: Anuradha, Jyeshtha Lucky Numbers: 9, 18, 27, 36, 45 Lucky Days: Tuesday, Sunday Lucky Colors: Red, Blue, Orange Lucky Stones: Moonga, Pearl, Sapphire, Gomeda
Scorpio is the eighth and one of the strongest zodiac signs. Sun enters this sign on October 21st and leaves on November 20th approximately. This is a mystical and secretive sign that is more sudden and forceful. They are influenced by the magnificent planet Mars which is most decisive in designing their path of success. A compassionate sign of Mars, Scorpio explains the mysteries of life swinging from light to the darkness. In mystic thoughts, this sign defines the entry of life-and-death. Because of this reason, longevity has strong links with this sign and its owner Mars. General ForecastFor this ultra sensitive sign, the second and fifth houses naturally come under the ownership of Jupiter thereby supporting Scorpions with good family and lineage throughout life. The axis planets, Rahu and Kethu, are aligned at the first and seventh zodiac sign ruling the ascendant and house of partnerships. Here, the natural benefices, Jupiter and Mars are well placed with streaks of wisdom flowing all through the year. Scorpions are prone to addictions but Jupiter is protective this time, which otherwise would be disturbed or influenced by bad planets. They have a sense of esthetics and beauty because of the seventh house natural ownership of Venus.
Career, Love & Health
Blame it on the axis planets at the first and seventh positions, if you are veneered between cascading emotions. Saturn’s wrath comes from superiors and family members. Students fair well in all endeavors with full on concentration and success as Saturn strides progress. Jupiter moves into the sixth house of disturbance and disorders at an important time. Be careful with plans for marriage or partnerships. Innovative people define your lifestyle.
1 January 2011 (00:00:00 am) to 17 January 2011 (2:59:16 pm)
A strong Saturn works in your favor in the eleventh house of profitability creating slow but defined moments of valuation. Good academics and steady family patterns are foreseen. There is a sudden rise in social status and time is supportive for sudden ups and downs in family conditions. But these do not disturb you. Lifestyle becomes completely reformed and takes a fixed and valued path. Incidence of oro-facial problems, especially teeth, could come under review. The money flow is good and consistent. Discipline comes handy as it brings a lot of improvement in your life and work. Sudden burst of talent is on cards. Overseas deals are indicated on account of Saturn.
17 January 2011 (2:59:16 pm) to 6 March 2011 (2:06:33 am)
Steady and slow, you approach life with a keen intent, to enjoy the fruits of the hard times you have been through. Financial conditioning is highly encouraging. Married couples should add value to their relationships due to heavy aspects of axis planets at the house of partnerships. You will be easily irked by the activities of your partner on account of visiting members, especially your mother, into your family. This has to be dealt with utmost tolerance and tact. It is an ideal patch to plan trips to places of worship and sanctity. Also, a saint in the family is likely to change the mindset of family members. Children will be a major source of happiness to all Scorpions. Elderly people see their lineage showing significant improvements and share with others. A sudden trip to foreign countries to see relatives and lineage is in store. Avoid taking up a frozen diet.
6 March 2011 (2:06:33 am) to 2 May 2011 (9:57:58 pm)
Innocent and upright, you will trigger new areas of alternate thinking. This leads to other members of the team or partners misinterpreting you. This is a good time to enjoy the fruits of labor in writing. Attending meets or social gatherings will take your time, as would travel and family members. Important events take place in family for betterment. Increase in wealth, new friendships, new businesses and new environments keep you occupied and happy. You will meet and share thoughts with learned and wise people. You can expect general all-round success around this patch. Your social circle will improve and increase.
2 May 2011 (9:57:58 pm) to 25 June 2011 (12:35:51 pm)
Simultaneous triggering of events is predicted that could be disturbing and confusing. Your empathy is genuine for people working under you and you tend to be emotional with their appeals for a lending hand. There could be a possible breach in the current work progress or the project you handle may bring along sudden hidden obstacles. Blame it on the axis planets at the first and seventh houses. Saturn wrath comes from superiors and family members. Students fair well in all endeavors. Unexpected gain is in store; thus, be careful with new contacts of opposite sex. Attraction towards them or mixing with them keeps you out-of track. Avoid watching movies and television around this time as excessive addictions can lead to disturbances.
25 June 2011 (12:35:51 pm) to 17 July 2011 (1:07:19 am)
Relationships are primary this patch and it becomes inevitable and necessary to make yourself extra committed and involved. You need to stay focused on protecting your innersole and, at the same time, respect others sentiments. Partner’s health may be in the line of fire, so you need to address them with good precision. Finances need to be handled with utmost scrutiny and care. This phase is not as encouraging for all the matters which you are handling. Heat related problems may bother you causing depression. Keep good health and food habits. Take a break from your regular routine for that added strength and freshness.
17 July 2011 (1:07:19 am) to 17 September 2011 (9:20:10 am)
Your creativity is challenged for a new process that comes your way. You meet good and hardworking allies who will come to your rescue. You need to be at your personal best as Jupiter moves into the sixth house of disturbance and causes disorders at an important time. Be careful with plans for marriage or partnerships. Involvements with others, especially with mothers, are indicating celebrations and commitments. There is a probability of traveling for new employees or newly married couples. Young women should stay patient to deal with commitment issues.
17 September 2011 (9:20:10 am) to 5 October 2011 (6:03:33 pm)
Utilize this period to make new contacts and refresh the existing ones as they will highly reflect on your profession. Support from government and others is on cards. Those of you at the core of planning and execution will remain inspired with bright new ideas and converting them into action. Novel governmental decisions will not be supportive to you. Thus, you need to be proactive.
5 October 2011 (6:03:33 pm) to 4 November 2011 (10:28:47 pm)
Right from good backing from the family to close friends, this period is adventurous for you. You are all set to push your normal limitations this month with total encouragement for all-round success. Your craving for action all the time will be met with expansive traveling. Visiting places of worship is on cards with parents or with lineage. Meeting distant relatives and old friends is all predicted. Changes come in your life without your permission for the good. You achieve remarkable success in the field of your choice.
4 November 2011 (10:28:47 pm) to 31 December 2011 (00:00:00 am)
There is a very clear demarcation on your commitments as to what you prioritize and what you do not. Entertainment and socializing will have a reversal of sorts, as you will be in the line of action; it is an encouraging period of good health and personality. At the same time, you may face stiff opposition, either at work or domestically, but you are up for the challenge attributed to the planetary combo not supportive enough as Saturn stabilizes transit.
General Tips
Sunday is good for work.
Monday is an ideal day for long journeys and meeting key persons.
Keep your routine works for Tuesday.
Watch out for Wednesday as it brings troubles for you.
Taste good food on Thursday and spend in the company of your family members. Also, good for financial work.
Friday is great for making new contacts and searching life partners.
Saturday brings mixed results.
Lucky colors are red, brown, yellow, and cream.
Lucky gems are ruby, to be worn on the ring finger.
I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground, I see who you are
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why? Why? Tell me, why?
I take a step back, let you go
I told you I'm not bulletproof
Now you know
A survey I got from Carmi's blog. Sorry naman tinamad na ako sa 30 day blog challenge kaya eto na lang muna :)
Hi my name is: Wilcor When I'm nervous: I fidget By this time next year I'll: be somewhere else Last night: i was at work Were you a planned baby? Yes Were you the first? Yes Are your parents still married? Yes Do you have low self esteem? No Do you get depressed about things easily? Sometimes Are you happy right now? yes Are you comfortable with the way you look? yes Describe your hair: long and straight Where do you buy most of your clothes? mall Ever been kicked out of a bar? Nope Can you tie a cherry stem in a knot with your tongue? yes ;) Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? Outdoors, i'd die of boredom if i just stayed home Do you like walking in the rain? Yes! Do you like thunderstorms? Sometimes. Are you a vegetarian? NO! Anything you could absolutely eat forever? ice cream and chocolates What's your favorite dessert? ice cream and chocolates Do you want to get married? yes Have you ever been in love? Yes Are you in a relationship now? Yes Where is your cell phone? in front of me Your boyfriend/ex-boyfriend? ♥ ♥ ♥ Your hair? Needs pampering Your style? Casual Cheesecake is: Yummy Your dream last night: didn't have any Your favorite drink: green tea Car you want? Accord Room you are in: Etrade Your life goal? Travel the world and live life to the fullest Your fears? losing people i love Piercings:yup--ears Today: i feel sick but still went to work Check out: My next post..hehe One of your wish lists: to go on European tour next year Where did you grow up? La Union Favorite Movie: City of Angels What are you wearing? Jeans and shirt..wala sa mood mag dress up because im sick Ketchup? yes! Your computer? dont have one, but i have a laptop :) Your friends? Are my treasures Your Mood? bored thus the survey..hehe Missing? my dad What are you thinking about right now? the new job opening Your car? is in my dreams..haha Your work? can we not talk about this? :s Your summer? spent it reviewing for an exam..which i passed.naks! Your favorite song? So Close Your favorite colors? Blue, Black, Purple When is the last time you laughed? around 3 pm today with mabby and carmie Last time you cried? 2 weeks ago Last Text: "hi. kumusta ka na?" -- from someone i don't know Last call? my mom
